......

I always tell myself I'm gonna keep this more updated. Even thought of starting a separate one to keep family updated on whats going on since this is more of the venting blog....Then I had a reality check...

....we live a boring life....

I dont have alot of drama cause I try to keep myself out of it
We dont do anything exciting
Hell we dont leave the house more then going to grocery store most days

Im really hoping it changes in the summer
I swear im going to pitch a tent at the park im not gonna wanna be indoors so bad lol

Im sitting hear watching the season finale of teen mom....These girls need reality checks their all nuts in one way or another!

I have sat here for 20 mins beginning to type a sentence and then immediately erasing words....Too many thoughts. Nothing important. Just....thoughts.....Dont like not being able to organize and sort through them all. Oyi.

We've had a lot of struggles recently but then when I realize its mostly all financial stuff I stop and have to look around....I have a husband who busts his ass to make sure we have a roof over our heads and would do anything I ask of him because he loves us that much. and a son whos smile can bring me out of the darkest of mood (even when the mood is caused by him not sleeping through the night lol) and I have to go "......anything passed this just doesnt matter and we can make it through. We've done deployments this stupid stuff is easy...."


Well after sitting here typing random things for like and hour already I think I should just close it before I ramble on about stupid stuff anymore....


Hahahahah just had to add that I checked my viewer feed and saw that someone from PA found me from google by searching "eye boogies" and was dropped on a blog that I titled "are eye boogies the same as nose boogies?" Bet that wasnt what they were looking for? Though who searches "eye boogies" in the first place??

Time flys when you do nothing

Been a month and nothing new has happened here
We got through Christmas. It was nice getting up on the morning and having both my boys under one roof.
New years was nothing new. We were all in bed before midnight lol Mike had to work the next day
I am sooooo sick of snow
Not only everything being wet outside but also the fact its so damn cold I just cant get out and about willy nilly.
Im suffering major cabin fever.
I guess we got so used to being out and about every day walking, playing, at the park, feeling sun during the summer that now its all gotten old.
Cant wait to feel so heat agian
Ant's doing really well. Been practicing the flash cards he got for xmas. Hes getting pretty good. Can say all his colors and some shapes. Its funny cause theres 2 cards that are supposed to "top and "bottom" and they show a duck on top and bottom of a ladder and I try to get him to say the top and bottom and he refuses to say anything but "quack quack" lol Its just cool to see him finally be able to recognize something and tell me it without me saying anything.
He's doing really well with repeating things for me and daddy but gets shy when its with other people. we really need to just get out more. Thinking of trying to hook up with a mommy and me group from craigslist or starting my own. Theres also a play center not too far away that if we had the money I would take him too. Just sucks like the 1st year and half of his life he was always out and about and around people and just lately mainly cause of the winter we havent been able to. Feel like im stunting my child or something.
Think were gonna start trying to encourage the potty training soon. Need to get him his own lil potty cause hes showing alot of interest in it. So rather get a headstart on it then be trying to do it when hes starting school lol.
He is doing good with his "tank cu mama" when I hand him something. "Pwease" when he wants something. "ByeBye mwahmwah" when i go outside. "meowmeow" when ever the cat runs past him.
It was so funny the other day it was bed time so i was getting his jammies on and had him down to diaper when he suddenly shoved his hips towards me and said " baff mama pwease" I wasnt paying attention so said what and he did it agian and realized he thought he was getting nakid to get in the bath it was just one of those times you stop and go wow he was correlating getting undressed with bathtime. Its those simple things that make you stop and appreciate the little times. All the times i feel im not doing a good enough job or not appreciated enough. Makes me just stop and smile a bit.
We've been doing pretty well on the sleeping side of things. One fluke night out of the past week that he DIDNT sleep all night. And most naps have been about 2 hours long. Dont know if he's just going through a growth spurt or if we have passed that horrible stage but i will take it.
Speaking of him the loud ass upstairs neighbors are at it agian so hes up. ahhhh such is the life of mommy

Good day

We had a good day today.
Daddy played with Anthony most of the morning.
I was able to just breathe.
Did I get anything accomplished?
Nope
But it was ok
Cause it was nice to just not have lil hands pulling on my leg
"mommy mommy pwease pwease"
He even went in and got him down for his nap
Sure he slept for about 45 mins
But I didnt have to put him down
NICE
So then once he got up daddy kept him busy agian
Even let me go to the store by myself
AND
daddy bathed him and got him to bed
It really was a nice day
I have to make a big deal about it cause I NEVER get it
Normally Anthony is so mommy mommy
that as soon as daddy trys to take him
and he starts to scream
He gives up and hands him back to me
but he toughed it out for me today
and in the end
Anthony was pulling his fingers here and there
and asking him for his numnums and juice

It was just a nice break
Wish I had taken advantage of it
Instead of just being in shock
waiting for it to end lol

may be about alot or nothing at all

Im over Christmas.

Few weeks ago when we decorated I was excited. Now im just over it. I actually have yet to buy most of the presents for Anthony and Im already over it lol. Go figure. Im ready to have the apt back in order and not cluttered with stuff. Ehhh just gotta make it a few more days.

Ive been highly irritated the past few days when ever someone says a word to me. Mainly its the ones who comment on stuff about my child. Sure I complain about the sleeping situation alot but its my life what else am I gonna complain about. But if I hear one more person say "oh get used to it welcome to motherhood thats the life with a child" Dude I know....But it sucks!! so im gonna complain about it! If you dont care then flippen go away.

People on facebook. Omg its become just like myspace. Im only facebook friends with you! Doesnt mean I wanna all friendly friendly with you in real life. In fact I more or less cant stand you. You are completly fake to me and backstabbed me and I will never forget it! Send me a xmas card go ahead! Doesnt mean I will read it let alone send you one back! Ugh retardeddddd

Im ready to really just tell every person in this world what I really think of them. Maybe then I wouldnt feel so weighed down with stupid shit. But most people would probably wanna kill me hahaha...I guess Ill keep my thoughts to myself lol.

I need to burp. Im gassy...oyi

Im ready for winter to be over. This cold windy shit is not working for me. Poor child is stuck indoors all day long cause its just too freaking cold and windy for him to be outside. Maybe after xmas it will be lil better cause he will have all new big toys to play with. I can only hope. I know thats probably the majority of the sleeping issue with him. We just dont have a busy enough life to have him out and about staying busy. Were such boring folk. Ahh well such is life. We deal we get thru until a new day

Its cold....

Yeah i dont think we have gotten over freezing in the past 2 weeks. As much as i thought i was prepared for this I dont think I am. I ventured out today. And those who know me know I DONT DRIVE IN SNOW! Wayy too manyn bad experiences. I made it to the store and back in one piece. I just would rather sit at home next to fire and enjoy it rather then be out on the roads with all the crazy people.
As much as I want to sit indoors during the snow storms it certainly doesnt sit well with the child. Poor guy wants to be outside breathing fresh air but when its 6 degrees outside its just too cold for him. So weve been having to find more things to occupy our time indoors. Him not getting out and getting energy out isnt helping with the sleeping issues thats for sure. Since we moved him to the toddler bed I believe we've jumped over the "getting to sleep" issue. Now were working on the STAYING asleep hurdle. Once in a blue moon we get an all nighter. Two out of the three past nights we have been successful till about 7am....If we could stretch it just a tad longer i would be soooo happy. I finally tried out putting him to sleep EARLIER then normal and it seems to help. I never tried it before cause it didnt make sense to me .....put the child to be earlier in order for him to sleep longer....yeaaahhhh.
My childs growing so much lately. Ive finally gotten excited about Christmas just cause this year hes really gonna understand it all. The waking up opening his stocking, presents etc. Picking out presents is harder though. Last year it was oh colorful and lights up hell love it. Now its hmmm whats gonna survive a toddler?
Ive been just sitting watching my child lately. Specially when he starts going through a babbling phase and just wonder whats going through his head.
Ut oh must cut short someones up....

Not my most favorite day of the year

9 years.....

Yup thats how much time has passed

9 years since my life was ripped up from under me

At times it feels like longer

At times it doesnt even seem close

Many things have passed

Milestones have been reached

Not one day I dont think of it

Just the one day it sits out front

I like to think Ive pulled myself together

grown up

made my own family

With a loving husband

and wonderful child

but nothing feels the gap in my heart

dont think anything ever will

but its ok

I dont want anything to fill that area

Its special to me

When ever i feel the emptiness come on too strong

I remember my angel

that follows me where ever i go

watches over what ever i do

keeps me safe

Picks me up when it becomes too much

I hope ive made you proud

Even though you cant be here

I carry on

Anthony will always know who his grandma is

I miss you Mom

Love you always

Headache....

Ugh today was long.

Ant's been sleeping through the night fine but getting to actually fall asleep or nap is a serious struggle.
Last night we laid down to go to bed at 8:00...I believe i finally was able to put him in his bed at 9:45
Today we sat down for nap time at 12:25 he was asleep at 12:30.
Should have known something was wrong right then.
He was back awake at 12:47
Sat till about 2:22 trying to put him back to sleep NOPE not happening
Got through the day...it took foreverrrrrr
sat down for bed time at about 820.....he was out at 8:35
Will hopefully be out till at least 730am

The other struggle we've been going through is eating....
He starts giving me all his signals that he's hungry ie.mamama running in the kitchen trying to pull open fridge and cupboards
So I go make him his meal, get it on the tray, get him in his chair and let him go
He will eat a handful of bites.......then.....
he starts chucking food fussin and some more mamamama
so i take off his tray and he doesnt want down
Put it back he eats a few more bites then it repeats
Lets just say the carpet is already spotted in this apt

oh well.. its life

Guess for those to be my only real complaints i should be thankful
I was completly frustrated by the end of my day but then i was in our bedroom picking up some stuff heard daddy come home looked over just to see ant's face completly light up and he starts to squeal. It makes me kinda like him after all....

Need more hours in a day

Yup I now realize why adults used to say that when I was a child.

Cause as I sit here now at 9:15pm
my childs asleep
and i think of all the things i wanna do before I fall asleep
All those things that take way to long with a child hangin off your leg

Loads of Laundry
Kitchen cleaned
clean sheets back on the bed
long hot shower
do some sewing for christmas presents
get some scrapbooking accomplished of new pics i just got printed

An lots of other things
What do i do?
Sit here and watch tivo.
What can I say I cant resist me some vampire diaries
..(BTW shes totally realizing silent hottie is a vamp)
Ugh Big fat ugh....
My days are slow repetitious days....nothing new nothing accomplished
Oh well
I swear I hit 25 and all the lil things that were wrong with my body
have decided to BLOW UP
Had what I figure was a strained muscle in my side
For the better part of the week
Couldn't sit
stand
lay down
bend over
for too long
IT was painful
Seems to have disappeared
Course now that I speak of it
Its gonna return
Now
I got up from sitting yesterday
almost fell
myleft knee felt like it was gonna just pop out on me

Ugh something new

Love the people who say go to the doctor
People telling me I probably had this
that
or
this
Sorry no insurance or money for an ER visit...
Sad but true
Unless im bleeding or bones popping out
we take an ibuprofen
Call it a night
At least until Mikes worked enough his insurance kicks in

The other issue
me working
I would absolutly LOVE LOVE LOVE
to get out of the house on a daily basis
But I have to look at it realisticly
What job am I gonna get
With the minimal experience on my resume
That will give me hours between 7am-6pm
Mon thru fri
Not weekends since daycares dont do weekends and we both cant work on the ends
That will pay for my child to go to day care
AND bring home money in the end
Yeah theres not lot of choice there
That and the driving issue
I dont do well in snow
(too many issues with OTHER drivers in the snow have made me paranoid)
My last job....didnt have to go to work when it snowed lol
Made things soo much easier
Dont think I can find a job with those requirements



Ah well its taken me 30 minutes to write a whole bunch of nonsense
Oh well if your here you should be used to it
If not Hope you come back to visit agian
Maybe be popping in time to time with random thoughts here or there
Never anything exciting
Cause that just doesnt happen in my mundane life

Clarification:
Before I get the people with the thoughts about my thoughts
I love my life...I would not give it up for anything in the world
I would do anything for my boys
But my life can become very boring most days

Been too Long

Yeah stumbled back upon this looking for another site. Realized its been far too long since Ive updated it. Still amazes me that so much time has gone by so quickly.If you know me you know whats happened in the past year and a half so I wont bother updating then. Hopefully be able to update more often from here on out. All depends on how much time the child gives me to sit at the computer and not fuss at me. Until next time.

Hope 2008 isn't as hectic....

So apparently it took me 5 months and a new year to be able to have things to blog about. And boy do I now....So tighten up the seat belts this will probably be a bumpy ride....

So we found out in November our lil bubba is a lil papi. And he was full and proud of himself so we had no problem finding out. Which was good because Big Daddy deployed in the beginning of Dec for the third time in the past five years. So of course our Christmas was celebrated on Thanksgiving once agian this year. Which isn't too bad but it just makes me want to skip the entire month of December since the only thing any one ever looks forward to for December is celebrating Christmas. So we got through most of dec without a whole lot happening....until the end of course.....

My sis went back to her fiance's house for Christmas so I took on the responsibility of watching her zoo on top of mine.....5 dogs and 4 cats a turtle and a whole lotta fishys lol....Oh yeah and one of those dogs is ready to pop out some pups anyday now so it was a hectic week.

The day they left I decided to make a trip to the ER after not feelin lil man move for almost 48 hours and I was beginning to cramp very hard. After them strappin me up to the machines find out everything is just fine on him and hes just being a stubborn lil guy. His heartrate was just fine and they could measure his movements and everything looked just fine....They figure he was just hangin out front for so long I was used to feelin every twitch he had and now hes had to move back a bit so I just dont feel it like I did but to me that registers as Im not feelin him as often as I was even though he is in there movin all around just fine.

So sissy and family got home on the 28th which was also mine and big daddy's anniversary.....5 years ago we said we would tolerate each other for the rest of our lives...(I think we've done pretty darn well so far if I say so myself) So after takin a few days off from going back and forth to my sisters I went up on sunday to do some work on some used dressers we got for Bubba's room. I was there all day and after dinner it was dark and I realized it was startin to flurry a bit so should probably head home. I walked outside to start the car since its about 20 below here and didnt wanna drive home in a freezing car. Walked back in the house to grab the pups and had made it up the stairs to kiss the kids bye and heard my car rev and looked out the window just in time to see the back of my car going down the street. I was in shock. Someone had literally taken my car right out from under my nose. Yes the keys were in it but when most people look at my sisters neighborhood she's in the "Good" neighborhood.

So we called the police and they came and took our statement and even come to find out its illegal to leave your car running unoccupied and yes I know its probably just a stupid thing to do but I didnt know they could actually TICKET you for it. I realized the car only had about a quarter tank of gas so was just hopin i had a poor person take it who was gonna be able to go far and have to just abandon it on the side of the road somewhere.

So stayed at my sisters that night since they had my address in the vehicle and keys to my house but first had to come down and get Big Daddy's truck since they also had the spare key to it and I really didnt need BOTH our vehicles being stolen....Spent yesterday changin locks on the house and contacting the insurance company etc. Then this mornin I wake up and I was trying to find the number to our finance company since I forgot I needed to inform them also and as I'm searching through paperwork my phones ringing off the hook. Some random number and I dont pick them up usually but figured it might be the insurance adjuster....So i pick up and hear
"Is this Trisha?"
"Who's this"
"Did you have your car stolen?"
I'm confused and lost at this point
"Yes who is this?"
"My ex is the one who took your car I have your keys and I know where the car is at I wasnt the one involved in taking it so I dont wanna get in trouble but I wanna do the right thing and make sure you get your car back"
"Is it in one piece? "
"Yes"
"Ok where is it thats all i wanna know"

So we went over where to meet at to exchange the keys and get me my baby back. So I jump in the car calling my sister tellin her whats going on and that I need someone to go with me to do this. So while I go pick up her fiance im calling the police to inform them of the situation and we head over to where I was told the cars at. Two streets down from her house! For 48 hours my car was about a mile or two away! We met up with the chick she handed me my keys explained to me how to came about them. And we waited for the cops ....and we waited....and we waited....yeah over an hour later and they finally come....They open the car and find everything under the sun inside....Including lots of beer cans, illegal drugs and the paraphernalia to use em. They had completely tossed my car looking for anything the could get. Opened the trunk and I had two huge truck tires shoved into it. The tried to take my sub from the trunk and apparently couldnt get it. The stole the video camera I had just put in the trunk since my sister had used it for her vaca and I had just gotten it back. And a board game....The took a board game (yeah were talkin smart criminals here must have had a thing for pop culture entertainment lol) Oh and my basketballs and Volleyballs for work.

But other then all that I had my baby back and she was in one piece. There was one cd in the car that was not mine so the cop took it and told me well check the cd player to see if theres one in there and if its yours. That one was and as I was getting back out of the car I realized hmmm wonder how much gas is in the car. So start the car back up and it doesnt start....Its puttering....It finally starts and I realize its cause it is on E....I can just thank god that probably the only reason they left the car was it ran outta gas and they couldnt fill it....Thank god.....

So we take the car back to my sisters so they can help clean it out and not have any residue from god knows what since I really didnt need that gettin into my system. We get to my sisters house and the boys are sitting out front playing and my sister looks at my nephew and says what are you holding what do you have in your mouth....He hands it to her and both of our stomachs jumped into our throats. Its a syringe with the tip broken off....He informed us he went two doors down to see if the kids there could play and when the didnt he was playing in the yard on his way home and found this syringe in the yard and started playing with it...Cause of course hes 3 he has no clue what this is....He just knows it does what his bright blue and yellow tool from his play doctor kit does....He doesnt know its harmful and can hurt him. So we rush him to the ER and after sitting there for 4 hours they tell us more or less hes just fine...So needless to say he gave us a scare thats for sure.

So now I sit here hoping to lordy lordy this year starts off much better and brings alot better things then 2007 ended with. I have the birth of lil man to look forward to and thats about as far as im lookin so far....

forgot to add

So Mike will definatly be getting extended and will be leaving agian....He was all set to reenlist and get a bonus but as they went through and reviewed his paperwork found out they screwed it up and he was actually never eligable for the bonus...So now were stuck back in the same spot hes leaving and were getting nothing....Dont even know if he will be here for lil beans birth....So right now im just..........fhnWFDAWDBVAID.....YEAH just like that.....

First OB APPT

Ok so had my first actual OB prenatal appt today....

Started off with the nurse taking me back to do my weight and vitals and such...As she was goin through my file she was telling me what all they would be doing for my appt...Said I would have my PAP and pelvic exam and they would try to get the heartbeat but because I was only in my 9th week not to get my hopes up they may not be able to get it....

So i go in get my gown on doc comes in and does my pap after were done with that she's just going over how my thyroid meds are working and stuff then she asks me if I've scheduled my ultrasound yet told her no she was like ok well Ill put it in the computer for you to schedule it so we can get a good record as of now size and age etc...Asked if I was having any other problems concerns etc that I wanted to bring up told her no and that was that...Didn't even attempt to hear a heartbeat at all.

SOOOO.Left that office made my next appt then went to radiology to schedule my ultrasound. Now when I left my OB i was under the assumption she wanted me to have my first ultrasound before the next time she saw me....So I tell the radiology chick i need to schedule one she brings up my file askes me how far along I am and is lookin at the calendar next to her making a face and then she tells me well our schedule isnt out far enough for when we need to schedule it. I kinda gave her a look and was like well she wants me to have it now so whats the problem she was like well no she put routine ultrasound in which means 20 weeks which is november for you so we cant schedule it till oct. We dont schedule it before 20 weeks cause you really cant even see anything.....(BULLPOOP Ive been through three nephews and neice I know you see plenty before hand) so I was like uh no Im gonna go back and talk to my doc.

SO we went BACK to the OB clinic and had the nurse talk to the doc and she was like oh no she wants you in for your 20 week....I was so pissed. I had gotten excited thinkin that I could be goin in in the next few weeks to see the lil bean....Nope sure aint...Insurance only pays for 2 ultrasounds the entire pregnancy unless some complication comes up.

So really didn't leave the hospital feelin all too happy with the way things are done...I did like my doc but I wont be seeing her next time since they just schedule you with who ever is avalible...SO most likely I will see a different doctor everytime and WHO KNOWS who will actually deliver the bean....But oh well I will take is as it comes and just try to sit back and enjoy the pregnancy that so far hasn't been bad at all.

Just wanna know.....

Yeah so it's been a while since I've posted anything just since I haven't had the motivation nor the reason to. Living day to day life is really not that interesting. But I guess I'll catch those up that I haven't talked to.
When I went in for my preliminary blood work they called me back to let me know my TSH (thyroid) levels were off. Yeah I could have told them that would have happened I do only have the left side after all lol...The normal level is 3 to 3.5 at most mine came back 8.8 So I had to make an appt with my normal doc since the OB didn't wanna put me on anything....So at the other docs they decided they can't really do a whole lot since I am pregnant so all the radiation treatments and such that I went through last year for the other side of my thyroid are out of the question so they went ahead and just put me on meds. I do have to go in and have an ultrasound done on my neck to note what it looks like now before the meds really start working and I have to go in every 6 weeks to have my levels checked agian and see my doc....So i have the ultrasound on my neck this friday and next week I have my first OB appt wohooo...Need prayers and crossed fingers that every thing comes out just fine.
Other then that pregnancy is going just about as good as I would like. Only had a few really bad bouts with the with the morning sickness so far knock on wood so im not complainin too much.
Mike has to go in and see the colonel today...were hoping its gonna be to either tell him for sure if hes goin agian or gonna be able to get out.....I really doubt it but like Mike said he hasn't done anything wrong for a while so what else could it be lol....
On that whole subject I'm just ready to know a answer. Don't really care which way it goes anymore I would just like to KNOW so we can prepare. If he goes he misses the last few months of the pregnancy, chance of missing the birth and mostly miss most of the first year. BUT we wouldn't have to worry about getting cut off insurance or how the hell we were gonna afford to have this baby etc. But if he doesn't have to go and is able to get out I'll be worrying about money insurance since we will be cut off once hes out and just all the whats gonna happens....BUT he will be home....he wont miss a thing......So either way theres pros and cons I would hate to so which I would prefer since I know the choice isnt up to us really....I would just prefer to KNOW.

GOIN ON A VA-CA

Yeah going away for a week....nothin too fun just the in laws....Not like I'm on here much anyways but thought I'd feel special and announce it to more of the world that I wont be around for an actual reason at least....

Hopefully once we get home Ill be around more often and come bearing lots of pics....Im promising myself that Im gonna just be a total tourist and make the most out of this trip.;....So st louis arch and missippi river watch out!!!!Ugh Ill be back........

Until then have a good week leave me some love all!!!!

ONE OF THOSE DAYS....

That I absoutly hate the military.....maybe not the entire military but my husbands unit to be exact.

Having someone work 24 hour duty on a holiday is one thing but could you at least inform them that they will be working that holiday?? Instead of letting them assume they will have that day off and letting them make plans.....


So Hubby had a soldier late this morning and had to go into a room he normally doesnt since hes not supposed to be allowed to, to check some names off a list and happens to stumble upon the CQ list....Guess who's names on it for tommorrow July 4th??? Yeah.....Apparently the list came out a week ago but its been sitting in this back room that no ones supposed to be in instead of being hung in the main room where every one looks for it. So if he hadn't went into this room he wasn't supposed to be in he would have never showed up for duty and been in trouble....Its just BULL!!!!!

I mean am I overacting?? its not the fact that he has to work tommorrow (I know alot of people have to work on 4th of July) its the simple fact that he thought he had the day off and he finds out accidently 24 hours before that he doesnt.......

This military wife is NOT happy!




*******EDIT..........
So yeah still hate this unit but apparently someone couldnt work due to an family emergency so they had to bump everyone up a day so hubby is on duty right now into tommorrow...and have tommorrow off from 9am on..I know I know i seem to overreact at the simplest thing but it was frustrated.......

It's hot

I wish we had A/C...........

My house needs to be cleaned.........

I'm too tired to do it........

I did the outside today and all the cars.......


Maybe Ill get the motivation and energy to do inside later........

Its raining its pouring the funnel clouds aren't snoring.....

Yeah weve freaking been in tornado's warnings for like an hour today and then it turned into a severe thurnderstorm warning. Now when it started I was on the other side of town at work....Now my job i work at softball fields and part of my job is digging holes to place bases in. I had started to dig the first base when a huge lighting strike hit about 500 feet away from the field I was on. Yeah needless to say I high tailed it off that field and said were cancelled!!!!! then driving home I had made it almost to my sisters to pick up the dog and was turning off one street onto one that takes me to my sisters and a strike hit the field that was on the corner I was turning on.....So needless to say I'm just glad Im home now and not outside lol.
Things have been all jumbled here at home. Just had a few of those days in a row where every lil thing on gods green earth just seems to go wrong and come up all at the same time. I just wanna have one calm day where I can just stay home and enjoy my life. Yeah not happening for a while......It just sucks.....I dont know....I'm rambling but its really just cause I dont want to sit here and bitch and moan when I know other people out there probably would look at my life and be like why are you bitchin. I had a player at work ask me how yah doin the other day and I told him oh just having one of those days yah know? He told me well you woke up breathing this morning so you have nothing to complain about....I just wanted to be like yeah i know but it doesnt mean im not allowed to have a bad day....Yah know....I hate people that are just chipper 24/7....thier lying to themselves I swear....
I guess that's all really. Just glad mike's at least home so i have someone to go home to every night and I dont have to say a word just bury my head in his neck and just feel that much better....May not solve all my problems but it at least helps me feel a bit more relaxed......
One last thing just gottta put my congrats out there agian even though she knows Im so freaking exstatic about it...my Taschi's "with nugget" hahahaha So freaking excited!!!!......I get to live vicariously through her!!!

Here's to her first of many

Baby Kay has the second of three parts to her "baby pageant" tommorrow. As of today after the photo portion she is currently in second place. So were hoping she kicks major baby bootie in the personality portion tommorrow. I was able to convince sister to NOT put the poor child in one of her big friley dresses (i.e. reading the paperwork that says "DO NOT OVER DRESS YOUR CHILD, Your child should be comfortable. The judges do not judge on your childs apperance just the personality and facials OVER AND OVER AND OVER agian!) So I finally got her to agree on a cute set of pink overalls with lil flowers on the pockets etc and a matching white shirt. Simply because I know if were gonna have to try to get her to smile and laugh and be the happiest shes ever been to show her off to the judges shes only gonna do it if shes comfortable and that poor child is NOT comfortable with lace and ruffles in her poor face. So wish her luck hopefully I will remeber to bring my camera when I leave the house tommorrow or I'll just shoot myself.

On to even better news......Hubby's out of his two week black out ( explanation to those non military: hubby is currently in another state doing field training for 30 days. for the first week alls well but then a two week period they actually send them into far off fields with no phone reception ie"blackout") So yeah I could not have been happier to hear my loves voice and after catching him up on all the drama that has been going on and having him so pissed he wanted to simply jump through the phone....I felt so much weight of my shoulders it was great. (and yeah he was pissed at other people not me before anyone comments on that)...Can't wait for him to be home agian....

Well I probably have more to catch up on but I need to get to bed gotta be up early tommorrow....
Hope everyone has a great sunday!

Oh No Ive been tagged!

Yourself: tired
Your Partner: amazing
Your Hair: needs to be washed
Your Mother: Missing her
Your Father: Not missing him
Your Favorite Item: my camera
Your Dream Last Night: dont remeber
Your Favorite Drink: whatevers cold
Your Dream Car: something that i never have to worry about breaking down
Your Dream Home: in cali
The Room You Are In: living room
Your Fear: a few
You Want To Be In 10 Years: a mommy
Who You Hung Out With Last Night: everyone at work
Your Not: motivated
One Of Your Wishlist Items: clothes
The Last Thing You Did: made me a bagel
You Are Wearing: jeans and a shirt
Your Favorite Weather: Fall
Your Favorite Book: "The Notebook" or "how to make love like a porn star"
Last Thing You Ate: bagel right now
Your life: better once bubby comes home
Your Mood: decent
Your Best Friend: Mikey
What Are You Thinking About Right Now: having to go to work and will it rain agian tonight?
Your Car: silver
What Are You Doing At The Moment: eating breakfast and this survey
Relationship Status: married
What Is On Your TV: Judging Amy
What Is The Weather Like: windy
When Is The Last Time You Laughed: last nite

Why does no body have it?

Why is it when your looking for one thing and go place to place to place to place NO ONE has it???I hate having it in my mind that Im looking for one specific thing but going from walmart to target to the px to kmart to EVERYWHERE and not finding it. It's just so freaking annoying. Oh well.
Out of the blue this evening Jabba the Hut decides to call me.....I didnt answer.....and now she hasnt stopped calling me!.....I know what your saying....."Just pick up the phone and find out what she wants".....no....dont wanna....so Im not going to....
Im watching "The Italian Job" and wondering how....
This.....


Turned into this......


Yeah the mans hot!....Yes Jason Stratham is purty too but I think I like him for his accent....
So dont deny the hotness that is Marky Mark....
And just remember
"It's such a good vibration
It's such a sweet sensation
come on feel it feel it"


Yeah Im done.......